Wednesday, January 30, 2008

Seriously unbelievable!

So I was in Walmart today (possibly my first mistake-- but its th eonly place in town they sell bernat softee chunky yarn which is so cheap and so nice!) and this lady comes up to me. I'm thinking she works there because she was wearing a blue shirt and tan pants and didn't have a cart or anything but she had no name tag.

She says a comment I'm used to hearing: "All boys huh?"
Me: "yep, all boys" (then try to keep on my way, its past lunchtime and naptime)
Lady: "You're helping out the male population, it seems like everyone has a string of girls nowadays"
Me: "Yep. Good for me" (continue moving away..)
Lady: "Are you going to try for a girl?" (another typical comment)
Me: "I don't know. Not now." (keep on moving but am being FOLLOWED, not going too quickly as not to be rude...."
Lady: "Well have you tried different positions?"
Me: "uhhhhhhhhh i have heard about that" (getting really red in the face now and STILL Moving in the opposite direction, not wanting to discuss my SEX LIFE with this stranger!)
Lady: "Well do you remember what position these were conceived in?"
Me: "Ummmm NO!"
Lady: "Well I've heard that doggy style makes girls and lying on your back makes boys"
Me: "Really." (Moving away quite quickly now but lady is STILL in persuit, me looking around to see if any of the other shoppers in the vicinity happened to notice this woman discussing DOGGIE STYLE with me in Walmart!!)
Lady: "Maybe you can try that next time"
Me: "Yeah. uhhhh bye."

OMG! I walked away as FAST as I could! I COULD NOT BELIEVE THAT! I wouldn't believe it if it didn't happen to me! WHO DOES THAT? WHO WALKS UP TO A COMPLETE STRANGER AND ASKS THEM ABOUT THEIR SEX LIFE???? And worse, tells them about DOGGIE STYLE! IS it even legal to SAY doggie style in Walmart?!?!? ISn't that sexual harrassment or something???

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

It's not fair.

I woke up this morning at 5:15 or so with Jason so I could have some time by myself. Lately, the kids have been sleeping until 8ish so I figured that would give me almost 3 hours alone, right? Wrong. Nathan is up already, and its only 6:10. What, do these kids have a radar or something? Mom's alone, QUICK, get up and go BUG HER!!

In other news, I can't seem to lose weight. I can't seem to do anything right on that front. I am SO sick of being overweight but it is SO hard for me to lose weight. I really am addicted to food. It really sucks. I don't want to be overweight anymore. I'm stuck at OVER 180 lbs. If I could just see the 170's again that would make my day. :(

Monday, January 7, 2008

Flying along.....

On December 31, 2007 I re-joined the flylady site. (www. flylady.net) My house is a complete disaster. I'm extremely lazy or something.. basically I'd rather be doing anything but housework. I am easily distracted by anything and everything, and then when I finally realize that I can't see the floors anymore and it is time to do something about it I don't have a clue where to start. It doesn't help that the three musketeers are toddling behind me messing up as I clean up.

Sooo back to flylady. I have started from scratch. I was successful at the flylady thing back in Japan for awhile but I don't think I ever started from the bottom, you know (er, well, maybe you don't if you've never gone to the flylady site) she has you start with "babysteps" and the first 31 days are outlined for you. You just do what she says on each day, take it one baby step at a time. So thats what I'm doing. Babysteps. And I feel like I'm actually going to do it, I can actually stick with this. I sure hope so, I need it.

That brings me to my next point. I just started school again. I'm taking 3 online classes. WHAT AM I THINKING?!?! I have no time in my day as it is! Now I'm going to have to figure out how to get schoolwork done? Well this may be the push that I need to quit wasting all my (free) time on the internet and do something productive.

Friday, January 4, 2008

So much to do, so little motivation......

I don't know what my problem is. Maybe its that I am oh, around 50 POUNDS OVERWEIGHT but I have no motivation lately. I am downright lazy. It doesn't help that I am battling this food addiction. Yesterday I was literally wandering the house in a daze, trying to keep myself from eating. Is that terrible or what? I did it though. I managed to NOT stuff my face all day. I did eat more than I should have at dinner but I realized that I can't beat myself up over my small failures or I'll give up on the whole thing. My weight is a serious issue now. I weigh more now than I have EVER in my life, except for the times that there was a baby in my belly. And that doesn't really count.

A few things I've noticed about being this overweight:
I have a hard time getting up off the couch, just like when I'm pregnant.
My legs ache after being on my feet for awhile.
My clothes are getting too tight!
Its uncomfortable to lay on my back in bed- I can FEEL the fat squishing my lungs!!
My heels crack in the summertime.

Thats just to name a few. I have finally realized that if I don't make a change now, my weight and my eating habits are going to set the tone for the REST OF MY LIFE. I don't want to get bigger, I don't want to set a stuff-my-face example for my kids. So, here I am. Once again trying to make a change. Hopefully this time it will stick. Its for my future.

So much to do, so little motivation......

I don't know what my problem is. Maybe its that I am oh, around 50 POUNDS OVERWEIGHT but I have no motivation lately. I am downright lazy. It doesn't help that I am battling this food addiction. Yesterday I was literally wandering the house in a daze, trying to keep myself from eating. Is that terrible or what? I did it though. I managed to NOT stuff my face all day. I did eat more than I should have at dinner but I realized that I can't beat myself up over my small failures or I'll give up on the whole thing. My weight is a serious issue now. I weigh more now than I have EVER in my life, except for the times that there was a baby in my belly. And that doesn't really count.

A few things I've noticed about being this overweight:
I have a hard time getting up off the couch, just like when I'm pregnant.
My legs ache after being on my feet for awhile.
My clothes are getting too tight!
Its uncomfortable to lay on my back in bed- I can FEEL the fat squishing my lungs!!
My heels crack in the summertime.

Thats just to name a few. I have finally realized that if I don't make a change now, my weight and my eating habits are going to set the tone for the REST OF MY LIFE. I don't want to get bigger, I don't want to set a stuff-my-face example for my kids. So, here I am. Once again trying to make a change. Hopefully this time it will stick. Its for my future.